had an extremely short lab session today, totally unexpected. our lab apparatus first broke down, and then the experiment was over in one hour. haha

singing K lunch tomorrow, during the 4 hour break! yay!!

shopping on sat! exciting!!! at least there's something to look forward to, which just makes the dreary school days pass faster=)

awake at 1am, with a tutorial that is still not completed, and due friday. i've been working on it since monday. saddened.

because i know you, doesn't mean i am not entitled to be affected by what you do.

despite already knowing that they are like that, still cant help being slightly put off and disgusted.

说不出你爱我的原因
却说不出你欣赏我哪一种表情
却说不出在什么场合我曾让你动情

那，我该怎么知道你爱我？

added: levi's jeans voucher [don't want liao],
kenzo flower fragrance, (not the summer edition!),
manicure+pedicure voucher,
nice haversack, that is not too big, but can put school stuff,
hugs + kisses!!! wahaha


such an un-subtle way to prompt people to buy my birthday present. i'm embarrassed. haha

lab starts again, after the one week hiatus last thursday. boo. shall not go school tomorrow, yay!

one more thing added to wishlist! Panasonic pore cleanser, EH2513G or EH2511A, retailing at $66/$69. hahaha available at Best Denki

watched secrets today, all through the show, we were attempting to guess the truth. haha then when it was revealed, and the show over, we realised there were still quite many loopholes. oh well, with stories along this storyline, there is always some ends that cant be tied up properly. =p i hope i didn't spoil the secret for hong and yinjie!

birthday wishlist:

wallet (relatives)
jewelry from sk or citigem[earrings/charm bracelet/necklace/anklet/ring=p]
photo album of memories/collage
skirts/dresses
bouquet of flowers [lilies lol]
cards
other stuff that may suit me, eg. spa voucher, slimming centre voucher, shopping voucher, hair centre voucher, money etc..
surprises! haha

p.s. please don't buy watches, food & ornaments.
p.s.2 really buying lilies must tell me hor! i don't want 2 bouquets! haha
p.s.3 this list is just for reference, it's the thought that counts=)

and the 3 oct/nov babies, give me your wishlist now! or no presents for you. hiak =D

when i was a little girl, i used to feel that my parents, especially my mum, was fonder of my brother than of me. i used to be very upset that they favoured him and showered him with more attention. sometimes i would cry before i sleep cause i feel unloved.

of course, now i know better. i know and feel that they love both of us equally. especially now that there are more opportunities for us to talk to them like adults. especially now when i can see more clearly the things they've done to ensure that my brother and i grow up the best way we could.

there are days now, when i think of them, or look at them, and realise with a startle that my parents are really growing old, just as i'm growing into an adult. and then i begin to worry, about their health, about whether i've been spending enough time with them, whether i've done my best to make them worry less, and be proud.

i love them very much, and i am thankful for all they've given me, both stability and love. as i turn 21, i hope one day, i can repay them, and show them they've parented their children well. =)

excitement's building up!! together with lots of stress. hope the two balance out, even though they are from different parts of my life. =)

watched rush hour 3, not as funny as the first two i guess, but it still amazes me that jacky does all those stunts himself, at his age. didn't manage to catch secrets, cause too many places were sold out or filling fast. really have to resort to afternoon slots, or booking tickets in advance? haha

shopping on sat 1st sept! yay! lab's done!

my emotional safety net sometimes fail.. but most of the time, it sticks and works quite well. i'm quite fortunate, i guess. =)

expected year of graduation 2009, my email says. haha it seems so far away!!! but i'll be glad when it's over..

this is a pair that looks so happy together!!
another happy couple - jianwei attempted to kiss zhiyong, in the privacy of their hall room!

so zhiyong wants to make their relationship public, by kissing jianwei back in front of us!

i am Little Miss Grouchy. or maybe Big Grouch. i hate tutorials that have to be handed in. i hate tutorials that are so open to interpretation. i hate being grouchy. i hate venting my grouchiness on innocents. i hate school, and all its problems.

find yourself someone sweet and capable, with a wonderful tolerant temper, if you so wish. she should also be someone who is willing to put you at the centre of her world, and is willing to do everything according to your wishes.

grouchy. extremely. especially when deadlines are looming.

some select photos of today!

we cycled for only 2 hours, and my backside hurts already!!! going to have blue black la!! but at least the skies cleared up enough for us to go ahead with our original plan. =)

i like it very much, the way we are now. totally mixable, and so lame. perhaps taking photos form deep bonds, especially during silly poses that are done in good fun.

losing sleep over a pathetic tutorial, which constitutes 2% of my final marks. hahaha but now that it's almost done, i feel relaxed, not so stressed le..

saturday i'm going to enjoy the sun, the sand and the sea. yay! but can the sun don't make me black? then can go eat nice food!

after some analysis and observance, i think this semester has hit everyone the hardest. is it cause we're year 3? or is uni life getting harder? or are we getting harder on ourselves? or is it cause the end of our education is nearing, and we're still lost, and uncertain?

remember to find little things to be happy about everyday!! =)

pssst, any good caterers to recommend?

tutorial due on friday, and i still don't know how to do!! haha help help help

talked and did lame stuff over dinner yesterday. let the pictures do some talking. i lazy haha

the bananas daddy planted are ready for harvest! and yummy, they're nice, and bigger than the ones you normally see. =)

i'm scared of the lab, which lasts for 6 hours every thurs! what if i don't know how to answer the questions the professor asks? hmm, i never knew i could second-guess myself so much until i came to university. haha

help me with tutorial!!

don't know how to do my tutorial, though it seems manageable. feeling a bit sad. why does school seem so hard?

dinner with the girls on tues! something to look forward to.. and also east coast park on sat!

i have new clothes!! yay!!=)

totally random, wondering what am i doing with my life. haiz

even if it irritates me when i am looking for a big fight, i love the extremely reasonable you. just that you really ask too many questions.

with an exception of gen, my best friends are from secondary. the people i feel most at ease with, the people who i know the longest. and suddenly i'm supposed to understand you dislike my meeting them. i don't know what to feel, except on the brink of being torn apart.

first, you tell me that my parents are hostile towards you. then you tell me my girlfriends are unfriendly. now you tell me, you don't like my being with 2b people.
must it come to the point where i am totally cut off from my world as i used to know it, such that it only includes you?

i see you everyday, and i would have gladly told the whole world about you if only i could. carry your picture in my laptop, handphone, wallet, not just only in my heart. why do you want to be unhappy about one 2b gathering?

you say you are not trying to restrain me, then why am i expected to compromise, to do things you want me to? maybe i really don't understand you. but you also don't understand me.

maybe you shouldn't tell me everything.

trying to finish 法政先锋，very 紧张! and i feel like eating mooncake le. haha

tutorials starting for ntu le, and nus starting lessons. which means there's very little time to meet up le, even within the school. everyone who sees my timetable want to faint or puke. haha

readings to do, assignments to hand in, notes to print. feeling tired way too early.

精疲力尽时的心很脆弱，能了解吗？不是生气，不是不开心，不是厌烦。而是厌倦，没力气去感觉。并非存在着问题，只是我想睡觉。没得睡觉的我，脾气很坏。哈哈

of all the food i was invited to share with them, the one that touched me the most was the average takeaway 咸鱼炒饭。 and i wonder why i think of it now. perhaps cause it touched me even more than the delicious frog's legs and steamed prawns at dinner yesterday.

happy national day singapore!

i love you with everything that i am, i just hope sometimes you won't ask me to do things i can't bring myself to do.

in all the madness and the stress, i feel fortunate to reach out and find you beside.

school has barely started, it's only been two days. but already, i feel the stress and tension threatening to change me into a frantic and short-tempered monster. help!

lunched today with some of the 2b people. not bad to have a gathering in school, but i doubt there'll be more chances like that, with everyone's timetable clashing. and i want to meet my girls, and my drama friends!!

parents not around tomorrow night, but the house is occupied by two groups of my brother's friends for mahjong for two consecutive days. i want to play lehz! but no chance. and i have to reach school by 830 on friday! oh god.

isn't the first week of school supposed to be slack? already next week tutorials and lab start, and assignments are due. haiz. one long semester ahead.

some pics we took at ktv yesterday, before heading to kj's farewell party. haha silly us posed 12345, so act cute. and the guys tried to sing tenor for sally ye and george lam's xuan ze. haha had fun! small gatherings like this are nice, cause everyone will get to interact with everyone. =) should do it more often, but school's starting tomorrow!




and some outdated pics, of the girls eating dimsum at redstar chinatown, and of hong at crystal jade holland village.

see you people soon!

had dinner at a pizza place yesterday evening, and was disgusted by a woman who thinks she very skinny in a short skirt. with two boys in tow, she ordered only one personal pizza, and proceeded next door to order roast duck. when the roast duck came, and one of the pizza place people went to politely tell her that can she avoid doing that the next time, this haughty snobby woman said in a voice loud enough to hear, i ordered a pizza from here, and i paid money, why cannot? i was so disgusted, i kept rolling my eyes. later when she was about to leave, she wanted to take away some food they couldn't finish, and told her son to do it. and on seeing her son's timidness, she declared, ask you go tell the uncle you want to takeaway, you just do it, we paid the money. such a bitch.

please don't think that because you paid, or you're rich, you have the right to be such a condescending bitch who treats people without manners. you are just filth.